God is beyond Good.
Earlier today, I was really waiting for any answer (no, scratch that, make that inkling) that this friend of mine is still my friend, and that he wasn’t ignoring me. Unfortunately, until today, I haven’t had any messages or tags, mentions, the whole etc. It made me sad. It made me discouraged. I have never felt this rejected in my life. I didn’t know what had transpired for him to completely ignore me, but I really didn’t even know what reason he was ignoring me for. I had suspected it was because there was this moment when me and a couple other of my friends were at my place, and there were these sudden “slip-ups” where I acted too giddy when I recieved one of his messages. I think my friends noticed, and put two and two together, so.
I had no more interactions with him after that day, not even likes on any social networking site, and usually, we did that. I have never felt so stupid all my life as well, because I should’ve just shut up about him when my friends were here. I was so ignorant and I hated that part of me.
So, yeah. I was browsing through facebook, and I saw his profile. I saw him replying to other people, and I had this impulse to just message him to get it over with, but I didn’t. Instead, I told myself, “Okay, I’ll go to YouTube and watch some Joel [Osteen], and the first result that comes up, that’s what I’ll do about the whole situation.” So I did. I went to YouTube, and searched for the term “Joel Osteen”. For those of you who don’t know, Joel Osteen is a pastor who does sermons and has his own ministry. You can check him out at JoelOsteen.com. I found out about him from my mother, who is an avid fan of his sermons, and I am very much an avid fan of him as well. Anyways, I clicked the first video that came up, and it was entitled, “Joel Osteen - The God That Closes Doors”
The first part of the sermon, Joel always says a joke. It was a familiar joke from a pastor that sermoned last Sunday. It was still funny though. I then proceeded to listening to the sermon and boy, was I absolutely befuddled. I can’t understand how God knows what I’m going through and what I’ve been thinking, because it is exactly the sermon that I needed. He said at one point, “If God wanted that person to stay in your life, then he never would have left. Just shake it off. Someone better is coming to your future.”
I just don’t know how I lived without listening to his sermons, they’re really eye-opening. I can’t think of ways to explain the trust I feel right now. I now know that if my friend doesn’t want to be friends anymore, then I don’t need to be friends with him, because maybe God is making me avoid hurtful situations with dire consequences. I am very thankful that God closed this door, and I fully trust Him for the next door he opens.